So on Saturday the 23, I woke up at 4 pm after going back to bed once I had fed Tiger and that's when my whole world changed. Tiger woke me up screaming because she was hungry, looked at the time and was shocked to see that I slept for most of the day. I looked over to mom to see if she had waken up as well and I noticed that her head was off her pillows, I didn't want her neck to get any sorer so I shook her to wake her up and called out to her but she didn't respond and that's when I noticed that her lips were blue and so was her face.
I panicked, prayed that she wasn't what I thought she was, I kept trying to get her to wake up but she didn't. I called Uncle John to find Aunt Betty but he told me that she wasn't home, I told him what was wrong and he told me to call 911, I did so;shaking like a leaf the whole time, and told them the situation. The operator told me to roll her over or onto the floor; she was lying on her stomach, I tired but I couldn't. Soon the ambulance arrived and I told them what was going on; I hope against hope that all she needed was some oxygen to help her, but when the second set of ambulance workers arrived and they learned how she was found is when my world collapsed. She was dead.
I couldn't think, couldn't breathe and all I wanted to do was cry and scream. The had Uncle John come up to see me, they told him what had happened and he was sad. He came in to see me, gave me a hug stayed for a bit and then said that he had to go back looking for Aunt Betty. The ambulance and police kept trying to get me to leave but I was so lost, I didn't know what I wanted to do, when Uncle John came back up, they talked him in to taking me downstairs to be with him because they had to wait for the corner and didn't know how long he was going to be.
So I went and sat there in his place on the couch and cried and begged for it all to be a dream, Uncle Mike and Aunt Donna came in not long after and that's when Aunt Donna told me that I was coming to live with them for as long as I wanted. I couldn't believe that she wanted me and she told me that she wouldn't have it any other way seeing as how Aunt Betty didn't have the room.
Its been an emotional roller coaster these past couple of days and its not going to stop because I have all next month to get the place cleaned out; have to get rid of A LOT of things, and of course April would have been mom's 50 b-day. The police acted as if they didn't believe me when I told them that I had to do everything for mom.
Finally we got told that it was an enlarged heart that caused her death and that we would be able to get back in the apt; see what happened is they shut down the apt and I only had the clothes on my back and nothing else, not even Tiger. We got Tiger the next day and now we are here living in the upstairs bedroom of Aunt Donna and Uncle Mike's place.
Its odd having to pick up my whole life and not having to take care of mom but I miss her so much. Saturday is the service and then the week after we will be burying her. She's going to be cremated and buried with Gran and Gramps which is good because I know that she would have love that. Its going to be hard on Sat because the people up north are coming; as far as I know, and they are all going to be shedding croc tears I know it. No one cares what happens.
Aunt Betty told everyone not to send flowers, to give me money to help me out. I'm thankful for her, Uncle Mike, Aunt Donna and Amy's help. Don't know what I would have done without them.
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