How your life can change in an instant and not for the good

So on Saturday the 23, I woke up at 4 pm after going back to bed once I had fed Tiger and that's when my whole world changed. Tiger woke me up screaming because she was hungry, looked at the time and was shocked to see that I slept for most of the day. I looked over to mom to see if she had waken up as well and I noticed that her head was off her pillows, I didn't want her neck to get any sorer so I shook her to wake her up and called out to her but she didn't respond and that's when I noticed that her lips were blue and so was her face.

I panicked, prayed that she wasn't what I thought she was, I kept trying to get her to wake up but she didn't. I called Uncle John to find Aunt Betty but he told me that she wasn't home, I told him what was wrong and he told me to call 911, I did so;shaking like a leaf the whole time, and told them the situation. The operator told me to roll her over or onto the floor; she was lying on her stomach, I tired but I couldn't. Soon the ambulance arrived and I told them what was going on; I hope against hope that all she needed was some oxygen to help her, but when the second set of  ambulance workers arrived and they learned how she was found is when my world collapsed. She was dead.

I couldn't think, couldn't breathe and all I wanted to do was cry and scream. The had Uncle John come up to see me, they told him what had happened and he was sad. He came in to see me, gave me a hug stayed for a bit and then said that he had to go back looking for Aunt Betty. The ambulance and police kept trying to get me to leave but I was so lost, I didn't know what I wanted to do, when Uncle John came back up, they talked him in to taking me downstairs to be with him because they had to wait for the corner and didn't know how long he was going to be.

So I went and sat there in his place on the couch and cried and begged for it all to be a dream, Uncle Mike and Aunt Donna came in not long after and that's when Aunt Donna told me that I was coming to live with them for as long as I wanted. I couldn't believe that she wanted me and she told me that she wouldn't have it any other way seeing as how Aunt Betty didn't have the room.

Its been an emotional roller coaster these past couple of days and its not going to stop because I have all next month to get the place cleaned out; have to get rid of A LOT of things, and of course April would have been mom's 50 b-day. The police acted as if they didn't believe me when I told them that I had to do everything for mom.

Finally we got told that it was an enlarged heart that caused her death and that we would be able to get back in the apt; see what happened is they shut down the apt and I only had the clothes on my back and nothing else, not even Tiger. We got Tiger the next day and now we are here living in the upstairs bedroom of Aunt Donna and Uncle Mike's place.

Its odd having to pick up my whole life and not having to take care of mom but I miss her so much. Saturday is the service and then the week after we will be burying her. She's going to be cremated and buried with Gran and Gramps which is good because I know that she would have love that. Its going to be hard on Sat because the people up north are coming; as far as I know, and they are all going to be shedding croc tears I know it. No one cares what happens.

Aunt Betty told everyone not to send flowers, to give me money to help me out. I'm thankful for her, Uncle Mike, Aunt Donna and Amy's help. Don't know what I would have done without them.

Jackson screen caps from 'White Collar' -'Shoot the moon'

So last night my love was on 'White Collar' and I was pissed at everyone because they got to watch it and I didn't; the only channel that I found it on was only on season 4 episode 5 and Jackson's was season 4 episode 14, but thankfully my friend Nicole told me where I could watch it online because I would have had to wait at least a month if not more to see it on TV; of course I got that episode bookmarked on my computer so I can go and watch it anytime I like.

So I went and checked the website today and sure enough the episode was there and I watched it, swooned, sighed, giggled and just fell in love with Jackson all over again. There was one line that I loved from his character. I think his character's name was Oz (were off to see the wizard *giggles) anyway Oz says to his girl, "I got you the moon."(insert major sigh here) after getting an actually moon stone for her.

Thankfully Jackson's character doesn't die in this episode; don't think I would be able to handle him dying again, of course I had to get some screen caps of Jackson from the show. I know there are a lot more then my 4 out there but these 4 were my favorite and showed the most emotion from him; especially 3rd.

So first here is the promo from the show and then I'll add the pics

"I got you the moon."

Love his eyes in this pic 

Wish he would write to me everyday for the rest of my life

Roses for my love

So this is my newest fic. Its Vampire Diaries Elijah/Elena. Its sorta a fully Valentine's Day story. The chapters are short and I don't know how long this story is going to be, but I don't give a care because I've finally gotten a story written that showcases my favorite Original. I so love this banner, its so pretty.

Roses for my love

Taming of the King

So once again I've let Speklez talk me into writing slash; I don't know how this always comes about. This time its with characters that I've never played with... the Volturi. I've posted the first chapter and its going to be a drabble fic, don't know how long or how many chapters but yet its out there now for her.

Pairings: Caius and Demetri - why them you may ask... well Caius is my fav and Demetri is Speklez's fav. Like I said, its lucky I love her.

Taming of the King